Sun Think Things

Have you ever felt saddness? the feeling of emptyness ? the way how whole of your existance suddenly becomes so meaningless. now i ask you to take a minute... "think of the best thing happened in your life" also think of your greatest desire. how is it? close your eyes think about you approaching both of them simultaneosly .. can you feel the happinsess the satisfaction? yes you have finally having your spiritual orgasm of achiving your life .. the meaning of your existance.. the toil of all those hours ,days or i dunno years.. :) did you feel it? suddenly wen you were just arms length of these fundemental roots of your existance what ever it may.. if objects erased from existance or if something else the chance of it happening reduced to 0. "how didyou feel?" Welcome to the fallen club. The primal condition to be a fallen is that.. iwe can only fall from a height, Otherwoise you are just a twisted asshole . :p the famous of the falen is the lucifer!

I loved maths.. its funny that the statement i used was in past tense.. there was instances in my life when programming was introduced for me to solve maths problems.. i would write code to solve simple issues. now i am stuck being a CS student, I hate maths now..now that wen i need to learn i kept a research on how i became so distant from maths.. The main reason is that after a period of time maths stopped being creative. picture an art class (under grad) and the assignment is the following pic: you dont get to draw the lines you dont get to choose the colors.. thats the creative aspect of maths.. or in this case art.. you get my point right? This is exactly how we teach maths.. instead of colors we will have 6-10 types or shaped cutters of types. they are the exact same type of problems.. their numbers change value change.. other than that nothing else.. its the  same color by number, a person gets tired by this over time or a period of time. The problem is that.. in ord